smile and breathe

before you go down

and suffocate yourself with fresh air.

is it fresh or is it recycled eventfully

it has lost its obvious dare?

long sigh and smile again

breathe again

smile again

breathe again

What I get lately

is a kind of odd reasoning for staying up late.

life is just what life is.

今日は。。。。。

it's convenient to transfer photos from

one device to another these days,

adds another excuse for me to dump "evidence" 

of Q1 2012

there's moving out of the parent's house, and getting

some guts to actually jump start and do some independent projects 

and the guts to actually finish them and sending them off although

they're so half arsed, 

a lot of outdoor activities,

and drawing lessons slash some excuse to gossip. 

life is better now than it has been ever before.

 it's nice to know that after all,

when you go back to that moment in time,

you realize you have made the correct choice.

once I had an affair with a content provider,

no affair ever lasted.

It was a particulary innocent affair,

but I feel the guilt rising before my eyes

so my neurons scream in unison, 

you have to stop this,

stop this, 

stop this. 

but somehow,

the way the heart work

is seldom in in sync

with the mind's eye.

that's the trouble

oh such trouble.

you can always rely on other people

for the rest of your problem.

even if some small part of it

is just yours and yours alone.

my drawing got into homeless longitude February edition.

the same drawing got into another local magazine called "Juice" on the same month. 

hurrah

work doodle and actual works. 

Scanner Testing

wide awake.

July-September 2011

my scanner screwed up :( 

so I can only upload old stuff thats been

forever in my hdd.

messy english as usual.

for me

life is a journey of discovery

as I get older I began to discover things

about myself

for me, other people is an abstract things

unless they've dipped

their ink onto mine. 

The KILL

I finished another comic yesterday

had a bloody awful time trying to send it away

I also tried marker refills to fill in the blacks

it feels goooood

wall!

society6 wall.

to socialize more, 

is my only resolution for 2012.

:) 

procrastination

first post in 2012! 

sometimes in my head, whenever I did rendering practices like these

I'd tell myself, 

you won't ever finish that

and I ended up not finishing them.

So I have tons of digital sketches that I never finish. 

just wishing won't really finish them.

a friend just finished his digital piece yesterday

for an online contest

I have a comic deadline in 6 days :(

boogie-eyed ratni

T.

I miss Japan already :( 

I couldn't disagree more to people who say that if you want to make film just do it. 

the correct statement is, if you want to make stories, just do it. 

film is a whole different monster 

there is a lot of chemistry and people involved in making a film. It's not something you could do yourself. If you're not patient enough, you'll burn yourself even before you could dream of saying "action". Relationship and politics can make or break. 

that's why, before doing anything, it's better to be a good observer, while telling your stories some other way. 

while wishing someday, just someday. 

Hiya

It's been a whole year since I updated at all, this year have been surreal for many reasons, and it doesn't seem like it's been a year at all.

this year has been good, and nice to me.

it seems like i have "found myself" and my niche. It's been there all along, only hidden in a pile of rubble that is my life in general.

I'm just trying to polish it because it's been under for quite some time. Should I use varnish? or metal polish? it's hard to decide these things.

so, after this and that, hope we'll meet again sometime soon.

love!

8pm it's only me and you, san miguel.

It's 8 pm saturday night and I'm sitting alone in this little cafe I always come whenever my internet connection at home fucked up and I need to work. I can't think of anymore keyword to search for a colorful porch, but since I should start to think of something